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Dilemma
Sometimes it's kinda interesting to sit back and reflect what you have done in your life. Think about the times you did some foolish stuff, the accomplishments in your life, the friends you made, the friends that left.
Everything I've studied or done when I was in school was becauseI wanted to make my paretns proud of me. Taking triple science and trying to get good grads coz I knew they wanted me o be a doctor and shit like that. But when I sit and ponder about it, I realised that I never actually got good grades because I hated what I was doing. I can never see myself being a doctor. Hated chemistry. Hated physics. The only science subject that I like was biology.
When I went to poly (did noy even comtemplate the idea of JC after my boring 3 months in JJC), I did not know what course to take. Want to pursue a diploma in mechatronics but I did not do it coz there was no degree program available in Singapore, so I did banking (after listening to the advice of my family). Guess what, I hated it.
After NS, I wanted to return to poly and do another diploma but this time in sports science but my paretns disapproved and I had to do a degree in banking. HATED IT. I guess, everything that I have done was to trry to please my family but now it's time I do something that pleases me.
Now, I am stuck in a job that sucks. I can't wait to save up some money so I can get certified as a personal trainer and hopefullt work in fitness first or playnet fitness. Never at california fitness. After that I wanan get my degree n sports science. In the end, i wanna run a gym. A proper gym not those at the community centres and shit like that.
Most of the time we end up doing what others want. How often do we really do what we actually want to do. Think about it.........If you have a birthday party and you wanna call all your friends but sometimes you cant because some ofthem might have problems with one another. If you call one person and don't call another, there might be problems. What I do to solve this problem is to never have a party. I prefer going out with my few good friends and have a blast without worry about politics.
Some people say life is so complicated. You wanna d osomething but you cant coz it might offend this person. You wanna go out with this person but religion does not permit.You claim you love someone but you cheat on them. What the FUCK man. Life is not complicated. Humans make life complicated.
Peace out
taste the pain
8/15/2007 04:15:00 PM