torn up inside
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What can I do
It's funny how things happen in life. A few weeks ago, everthing seems so perfect and right. Not a worry in the world and life was so perfect. Things changes. Everything changes. Things have changed so fast. I have destroyeded everything in my life. I have destroyed my own happiness. I have destroyed your happiness.......
What am I doing? Is the decision I made correct? How will this affect me in the long run? how will this affect you? Why did I make that decision. I want you to be happy. I know I can't make you happy. What am I to do.
All I do is cause pain to whoever loves me. I have hurt my family. I have hurt you in a way that I cannot even comprehend. I will never forgive myself for that. I really do love you but right now, I am not strong enough to face you. I have lost my will and my drive for everything.
Everything that you have seen and that you have heard since that fateful day is only a cover that I am putting up.. My life is in total darkness right now and no one can and will be able to pull me out of this. I doubt that I can do it by myself as well.
I'm so sorry. i really am. I have failed you so miserably.
taste the pain
3/07/2009 02:27:00 PM